I'm a GP who got coronavirus because I had no PPE. I feel guilty but also angry

We were left unprotected and felt like we were going into a battlefield. I don't think our profession will ever be the same

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I have been off work for five weeks with coronavirus, which I contracted during consultations with patients at the GP practice where I work. I still gasp when I try to talk, each day hoping for a miraculous improvement. I struggle to make a bed, let alone go back to treating my patients.

All I can feel is guilt. Guilt for my colleagues at the practice for adding to their workload. Guilt for the under-protected doctor in A&E who saw me when I became so breathless I needed to go to hospital. And mostly guilty for my children who watched me struggling to breathe and didn't know if they were going to see me again.