I think about one special coronavirus victim as I cry myself to sleep

Maybe it was because she was a healthcare worker and a mother whose family could not be there when she died

• Coronavirus - latest updates
• See all our coronavirus coverage

Why was she so special to me? Despite having done this job for a few years, sometimes it is impossible to predict which patients will be the ones you take home with you, the ones you think about as you cry yourself to sleep.

Maybe it's because she was one of us - a healthcare worker. I know this could happen to me or any of my loving colleagues. I am aware of this risk every time I get into my car to come to work, every time I put on my personal protective equipment (PPE) - I wonder, Will this mask protect me this time?"