How long Covid forced me to confront my past and my identity

For years, I repressed thinking about three things that shaped my life and my body. But the fourth blow of coronavirus pushed it all out into the open

For six years now, I have been writing down three good things that have happened in my day, every day. It doesn't matter how big or small they are. It could be having pastries in bed. Spotting a fox in the garden. Successfully descaling a kettle. I do not call this my gratitude journal, because I am not a motivational wellness blogger. But I have found it vital, in order to rewire my brain to focus on the things that have gone right. Left unattended, my thoughts have a tendency to slip into a downward spiral, to somewhere much darker.

I grew up in Italy, where there is a saying: Non c'e due senza tre", which roughly means Good (or bad) things come in threes". For most of my adult life, there have been three main issues that have preoccupied my thoughts when I'm lying in bed at night. I have guarded them preciously: I barely mention them, even to my closest friends. But, sometimes, repressing thoughts takes more effort than confronting them.