‘Trauma is messy, but music will come of it’: Jessica Curry on her new album, Shielding Songs

The award-winning composer of soundtracks to video games including Everybody's Gone to the Rapture is composing again for the first time since a traumatic pandemic

For the fortunate among us, the Covid lockdowns have, years later, become a memory - if not distant, then certainly ever-so-slightly faded. We have had a few years now, to get out there, to rebuild careers and relationships, to travel, to live in the world again. That's not the case for everyone. Award-winning composer Jessica Curry, who crafted the beguiling, elegiac soundtracks to games such as Everybody's Gone to the Rapture and Dear Esther, has only just emerged. Diagnosed with a degenerative disease in her mid-20s and seriously immunocompromised as a result of her condition, she began isolating at the start of the pandemic, and for the next five years barely left her home. While there, unable to work or write, her world began to collapse.

Like many people I had an extraordinarily painful and difficult pandemic," she says. I watched my dad die on Zoom, and then my auntie and more family members. Then they found a tumour in my ovary, and I had major abdominal surgery, but the operation had gone wrong, so I nearly died in 2022. While I was recovering from the third operation, the roof of our house fell in. It felt like a metaphor for everything. If a novelist had written this, no one would believe the story. And things just kept going wrong. So I wasn't writing music, I wasn't even listening to music. All of a sudden, I couldn't bear it. I'm still trying to work out what that rejection was about - I was just in too much of a mental crisis. I wasn't even feeding or dressing myself."