‘It doesn’t leave you’: the toxic toll of LGBTQ conversion therapy

Netflix documentary Pray Away, exec-produced by Ryan Murphy, traces the history of conversion therapy with regretful leaders of the ex-gay" movement

Julie Rodgers was 16 years old when her mother introduced her to Ricky Chelette, the singles minister" at a Baptist church in Arlington, Texas, who coached LGBTQ+ youth on how to change" their sexuality. The high school junior had recently come out to her parents; Chelette, a man with same-sex attractions" married to a woman, was brought in to fix what was seen as a problem. As Rodgers recounts in Pray Away, a new Netflix documentary on the ex-gay" movement within western Christianity, and her book Outlove: A Queer Christian Survival Story, Chelette preached an enticing, insidious gospel of change: that Rodgers' attraction to women was due to an insufficient bond with her mother as a child, that such attractions could be neurologically altered by committed study, that to do otherwise would be a disappointment to God and the community that had formed the backbone of her life to date.

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